Paper and Pen by Charli Jackson

Where my tears fall
They break the ground
Every time I scream
I just let it all out

You know what makes
The heart beat more
Is the respect you
Don’t have to work for

What makes the dreams
Bloom into success
Is seeing your problems
And giving them address

My brain is on fire
It hurts to even think
My pain centre is overloaded
I just need a little drink

I need an escape
but I remain in the cage
I swear I am faulty
I’m so full of rage

When my whispers turn
To the dreaded shriek
I feel the loneliness
That just reached it’s peak

I’m paralysed and reliving
The past like I’m stuck there
I taste it and smell it
I see it and start to glare

Is healing such awakening?
No, it hurts quite a lot
It’s worse when it surprises you
Right on that damn spot

I didn’t shed tears for a while
I thought the pain was all over
I thought by now I was close
I’m just looking for closure

But the battle came back,
And I’m fighting again
My only truly friend
Is this paper and pen.